| | Well today is kinda a crappy day. The depression is kicking up a bit. Last week I was up for 2 jobs which would have made me quite rich. Like go on vacation rich. But... I found out on Friday night that my new york gig pulled out and then I woke up this morning to find out that my Baltimore longer gig fell through as well. So I spent all day playing sim city and trying to look for jobs. Its funny how I can tell when I wake up what kind of day its going to be. Some days I jump out of bed and get right into the shower and leave and go do anything. Other days, like today I didn't want to get up. I didn't take a shower, and I didn't really leave the house. Well I went to the grocery store and made crockpot chili.
I contacted someone at the Depression and bipolar support alliance to get some help. I am interested to hear back. I hate this thing I have sometimes. I am afraid of doing normal things for no reason. Today I was afraid to do laundry. I don't have piles of laundry piling up, just thought it would be nice to do my sheets so I could sleep on fresh sheets. but I got a crap in my stomach when I tried to do it. So thats what I do when I get like this, I eat and watch tv all day. Now I am just babbling. I'm not looking for sympathy sometimes its just nice to have my thoughts become external. |
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